My truth these days is that I’m a stay-at-home dog mom. Sounds glamorous, yes. And while I don’t straight up tell people, “I’m a stay-at-home dog mom” I do share that currently I’m not working. My days consist of cleaning the house, folding laundry, sorting through mail, paying bills, doing some administrative work for my husband, and cooking. Lately, I’ve also decided to invest my time in blogging and creating content for YouTube. It’s not a stressful day by any stretch of the imagination. I don’t have kids, unless you consider fur children… I know plenty of women do all of these tasks all while balancing a full-time job and kids. And to those women reading this article, I salute you.
A while back, my husband asked me what my goals were for myself and I have to be honest, I couldn’t think of any. Well, any that were career related. You see, growing up, I always saw myself becoming a stay-at-home mom. I so desperately wanted to have babies and stay at home with them. Well, I am 31 years old with zero kids. It just hasn’t happened yet. So, here I am, not working and trying to fill my days with housework.
My contributions to the home may be significant, albeit, not as fulfilling as I had hoped. However, when I search far and wide for what I want to do with my life, I find myself lost. I went to college and earned a B.A. in Communications. After my first job out of college was a bust, I felt a calling into teaching. I was certain that’s what I wanted to do with my life. I ended up leaving teaching, and that leads me to today — questioning whether I go back to teaching or pursuing something within the realm of my degree.
Long story short, I’m trying to figure out my next step. Continue to be a stay-at-home dog mom, or head back to work. I look at my degree and think that there’s a lot I can do with it but ask myself, “how on earth do I make any of it happen?” For so long I’ve lacked the confidence to go out there and show my skills, because another truth of mine is that I’ve never felt good enough. That’s all about to change. This year, I’m making it happen. Does this mean I’ll be going back to work full-time? Or that I’ll be working from home? I’m not really sure of any of those things. But I do know this, I will be using my confidence and skills to pursue things that I was too scared to pursue in the past — like writing.
My journey isn’t meant to stir any negativity between stay-at-home and career driven women. It’s simply to share my story. I hope what I’m going through can resonate with someone.
So, what about you? Are you holding down the fort or slaying it at the office? Whatever you’re doing, you’ve got this. Until next week xx Emily

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